The 12 Grapes for Me!
What does a New Year mean when you are battling your own body? A new year may not be as exciting for you as it is for everyone else. A new year for most symbolizes new beginnings, change, the start of something exciting but for someone battling their own body? Someone battling cancer a new year can be the just the beginning of dread, the beginning of despair, the beginning of something scary because as the old goes away sometimes so does the hope. So tonight as I watched the ball drop and we did a new tradition of the 12 grapes I began to cry.We were supposed to with each grape we ate make a wish for the new year. I don't know what others wished for but I will say I can imagine it went something like this: For 2022 I wish to find love, start a family, finally have the baby I have always wanted, get a promotion for work, buy a home or get a new car. All valid and all wonderful wishes for this new year and new start for some but they were not my wishes. I don't need to find love